The joke is on me

After all this … life, breathing, seeing, hearing, thinking and feeling, or not,
The joke is on me. Honestly. I just don’t get it.
What am I missing? What is it that I just don’t get?
Am I too stupid? Is it so Duh that everybody gets it but me!
Am I trying too hard? Thinking too much??
Overdoing it?! Or not? What?!?!?
Tell me! We’re friends, right?
Tell me! Share the secret! Come on!!!! You know it!
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You’re silent!!! Why? Cat got you’re tongue? Are you ignoring me?
Don’t you understand? Don’t you care??
A response, please!!! Hello!!!! What is this???
Is it a sect secret? A covert vow you must keep?
Don’t overprotect me! Don’t patronize me!
Think I can’t handle the truth? That I’m afraid of it?
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Just like God, silent! I’m talking to a door,
That opens to an empty space, full of nothing.